first thoughts after waking up

Today, i woke up at 8:15 am. It was always the same routine. I would look up at my cellphone, see if somebody remembered me, and be sad because there was none.

You know it's getting frustrating how I always get up early in the morning DURING vacation. I always wake up in the range of 7-9 am. I'm already contemplating if I have a sleeping disorder or something. If insomiacs can't sleep. What do you call me? I can sleep anytime during the night,but my waking time would still be the same. I could sleep at 3 am but still wake up at 7am without effort.

Because of this, I'm awake for a great deal of time like 16 hours??!! Whatever you have planned for the day, I'm sure, would be less than 16 hours. So the result of my days is that I would get bored as in to the max!

Now during these times, I begin to reflect on things.

You know it hurts me to think that the person that I had made special in my life doesn't think the same of me. I mean, you are ready to do anything for that person and that person is just taking you for granted. shet dba? Parang that person is just ignoring you when you need that person, but you never ignore that person naman when the situation is reversed. Kahit na busy ka or something, you would never ignore that person because that person is special to you. That person had impacted your life to the point that that the person is part of who you are now.

What's even more frustrating is that you can't do anything to change that person, and you just can't stop yourself from caring for that person. Your emotions can't be controlled by the mind anymore because you made your emotions run free.

O what a lonely morning...