my friends (moi familia)

You could say that I'm a demanding friend. I crave for attention. I want that friend to say that I'm special to them blah blah blah. Yes, I do get 'konsensya' for being like this. I try to control myself, but sometimes I still become selfish.

My excuse: They are my only loved ones

Yes, I do have my family but they are like strangers to me. My parents are always absent. During dinner where we could have bonded with each other, the scraping of utensils and munching would only be heard because my parents would get angry if someone talks. They say it's a waste of time. In the rare instances where there would be talking going on the table, it would be because they are scolding us. What a great way to utilize dinner time diba?

Now with my siblings, I would also call them strangers. I seldom talk to them. Believe it or not, I get shy when I talk to my sister and brother. I can't talk with my little brother and sister naman because they don't understand what I'm talking about. They would just ask me what are the meaning of the words I'm using (which I have no idea why. I have a low level of vocabulary) like concern, luxurious, blah blah blah

As you can see, friends are the only people I could have a connection too. I get hurt when they don't spend their time with me, but I have to understand that they have their families and 'kasintahan' to think about. Well ,I guess, not everyone is blessed with all the good things in life.
Oh well..