flashbulb memory

There’s something about music that brings you back in time to those moments of utter bliss, sadness, and contentment. If you don’t know what I mean then try listening to music without doing anything. Before you know it, you would be spacing out to those moments in your past where there were great emotions involved: getting your first heartbreak, seeing your crush, watching your favorite television show, the first anime you watched, those childhood games you played with you friends, the silly bickering in high school.

Right now, I’m listening to the “Full House” OST; and I’m reminded of those silly episodes in the koreanovela. Although I don’t understand even one word of the lyrics, the melody of it invokes some feelings of warmth that only those particular songs can. With those memories about the series, simultaneously, I’m also reminded of those feelings of contentment that I had during those times where “Full House” was most popular. My day was complete just by watching this 30 minute series. I was really content on what I had back then.

I guess, college has that affect on life. It makes things more complicated because you get more involved with your feelings of peer pressure and adaptability with the new environment. Or was my high school so protective of us? I can’t pinpoint when all of these negative feelings came, but this feeling is making my life more complicated than it is already.

Music in itself is my own version of escapism through the hardships of life. It has the power to revert us back to those times where you are most comfortable with. Maybe it is the reason why I’m so into music nowadays. While I’m reminscing about my past life, I’m also recording these sad moments in those heart warming melodies/notes/lyrics for future use. I must admit that not all the music will make me smile, but I’m still glad that somehow, my cherished moments were “stored” and that by listening to songs I’m able to go back in time and actually feel “it” happening again.