unleash yourself??

If you had the skill and potential on something let’s say on one kind of sport. What would you do? The common answer would maybe be go enroll on some classes or for the bookish ones get a copy of ‘An Idiot’s Guide To ---“

But what if you just don’t have the money to go about these things? Would you just sit down and dream or would you stand up and find a way to explore your skills? Are we,as students, helpless altogether to the whim of our parents’ allowance and to their assistance? Do we ourselves limit our own potentials by being pessimistic if a certain thing would work out? These are the questions circling through my mind.

take a shot for bliss

Last night, MMK featured a typical rich-girl-poor-boy love story played by Anne Curtis and Zanjoe. Although Zanjoe sucked, Anne Curtis nailed her character brilliantly which led to the episode’s success. I cried when Anne Curtis cried. Yep, I was totally carried away by the drama.

Watching this though led me to think of the reality: love stories like this seldom work out in the end. These kind of love story doesn’t always end up “happily ever after”. Eventually the couple would split because of their differences in social status. Its either parents would intervene or one of the couple would give up on the relationship because of the stress put upon by their differences. Yes, a relationship of two opposite people would work; but it’s also very tiring, so why not just find a more suitable match for you and leave all those “hardships” behind? The relationship is temporary anyway, so why do you have to endure the stress? All in all, it’s absolutely impractical to stay in this kind of relationship.

Now, my question is this: Is it worth it to try in this kind of relationship where the other one is just super rich while the other one is just plain poor? I wouldn’t know what to do if I was in that situation. Knowing myself, I would probably go coward and close myself of any romantic feelings to prevent life’s complications. But still, I do hope that I would be courageous enough to risk a heartbreak for my feelings because even if we delude oursleves, we eventually have to face that life is short. Getting hurt is part of life’s beauty.

We have to remember that in those bittersweet moments with your love. He/She was able to give you that unique joy that only a loved one could give. If ever the relationship ends up to nothing, don’t sigh because of the supposed wasted time and effort you put upon the relationship because in reality, nothing was wasted. In that span of time, you were able to grow into a stronger and more beautiful person that you were before. That person has become a part of you and IT is because of him/her that you were able to realize the uniqueness of various aspects in life. Music isn’t just for relaxation. It is also for expressing the pent up emotions inside of you. Rain isn’t just a nuisance for commuting. It is a sign of the playful child inside of you who has no nuance of getting sick in the rain. Everything takes up a different perspective.

Indeed, we have to live in the moment. Carpe Diem.

Reality Check

Last night, my ----- visited. It was bittersweet. Again, I was reminded of MY world, and I cried. I slept with my pillow wet.

quote from that person: "Those born-again Christians are antichrist"

Saaadd....

unnerving thoughts

Today, I had just confirmed that our ‘katulong’ is actually pregnant with the baby of our ‘kang-lang’. I can say that I’m a bit surprised because it never went in my mind that the two had a relationship. Our maid seldom went out at her day offs. Oftentimes, she just hangs around the house doing her usual work.

Everytime a thing like this happens, I get disappointed. At the same time, I question myself: If I were her, would have I done the same thing? Yes, I’ve experienced my ‘kahibangan’ phases whenever a suave guy comes along; and I could just imagine how logic seems fade away when your with your ‘labidab’. You don't have any idea of those silly things you do. Logic is a blur. You'd do anything for your love even if the thing is out of your league.

In our psychology class today, my classmate said that humans are set apart from animals because of the ethics that rule our way of thinking and actions. So what if you’ve been lonely and lovesick for quite some years, and a guy comes along and sweeps you off your feet. I would predict that the heart would rule the mind.

That’s what’s hard about falling in love or infatuation, your ethics as a person fades away or should I dare say disappears completely. One would be lucky if you’re surrounded by true friends to supervise your on-going behaviorisms while you’re still in the ‘kahibangan’ stage.